It was so incredibly hard to choose a photo that I’d consider my “favorite” so I went for choosing my favorite photo from my current hard drive. That made the selection a bit easier. I chose this photo because it pretty much represents who I’ve been for as long as I can remember. If it’s not quite obvious I’ll lay it out there in the least “vain” way I know. Jeans. Hoodies. Huge scarves. Nail Polish. Neutral tones. High buns. Casual.

I do dress up a lot more nowadays because I have a fashion-less controlled attire during my work week. So on Fridays…I always break out the heels!! ha!

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 Today was very busy. We woke up at the crack of dawn, ran some errands and then headed to Baltimore to take my dad out for a birthday dinner. Word to the wise: never drive to B-More during rush hours on a week day. The absolute worst. But, seeing my dad happy made it all worth it. I’ll be back later with a more in depth post on that.

I… woke up around 8:00 AM. No reason, I’m just a morning person ¹.
I checked my phone for any text from Dana (you know in case of an emergency or just an “I love you” to start my day).
I started the coffe pot while simultaneously letting the dog out and talking to the cat.
I watched Game of Thrones on DVR.
I showered.
I checked instagram/facebook/twitter.
I headed to my dad’s house ² to surprise him with cake on his birthday.
Little while later I headed to work.
By this time, my mood has changed because I hate my job.
I rotted there for 8 hours because bills need to be paid.
Searched for new jobs while at work.
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I’ll get home from work.
Have a beer.
And another.
Watch more tv.
Zzzz….

Exciting right?? Yeah I didn’t think so.

1. Spending my weekends with my honey ¹.
2. Fresh cup of coffee.

3. Rainy days. I’m probably the only that loves when rain is in the forecast….Also, throw in a thunderstorm for brownie points.
4. Manicures.
5. Autumn is less than 5 months away… counting down.
6. Exciting plans that I can’t mention just yet because I’m stupid superstitious like that. BOOM.
7. True Blood next month! Yayyyyy
8. A fully stocked refrigerator.

9. Chipotle
10. Adult beverages… I can’t believe I put that on the list. Oh well, it’s number 10 so hopefully that helps.

 
Dear Dana,

I’m sorry I can’t control my PMS as much as I wish and I’m sorry I lash out when I’m hungry. It’s not you, it’s me.. you’re great. Promise. I’m also sorry that I’ve forced you to buy so many coffee makers in pursuit of my perfect one…. Sorry to tell you… I still haven’t found it.

I’m also sorry that I take FORVER to do the laundry. I mean… 3 days is fast for me. You’re so neat and timely when it comes to cleaning that I feel like I suck at life. I mean honestly, folding the clothes is the absolute worst part. Who invented that anyway?

I’m sorry for promising to start a garden since 2010. I realize that this probably means I’m terrified of the bugs under the dirt… so I just keep procrastinating pretending to be an all-American wife.

I’m sorry for shrinking your shirt. Okay moving on…

I’m sorry for letting my toenails grow too long once a month because I feel like a bloated pig and could give a shit about my toes.. but nonetheless, I’m sorry for scratching you at night and blaming it on the cat.

Lastly, I’m sorry I have so many things to be sorry for… like not dusting lately knowing your allergies are kicking your butt….ok bye.

Love always, 
The wife who cleans but kinda sucks at it.
 

I sort of miss so many things. For instance, I miss:

Living in Virginia | BEING IN SCHOOL |Being carefree | MY GRANDMA | My relationship with my niece | STUDENT LOAN DEFERMENTS (LOL)  | Eating whatever I wanted to | Having a life ¹

*Side Note: The phone in the photo is now obsolete. I have officially converted to Android via Samsung Galaxy S4 ²…I know I know…. Stay tuned for another review.

Day 10 | Today’s challenge is to describe myself in ten words of less.  Since I’m very fond of list making… this one was particularly easy for me (and also very narcissistic).  Here we go…

Overly sensitive. Bubbly. Spontaneous. Humble. Dreamer. Bad ass.

How would you sell yourself in 10 words of less?

Day 9| Today’s topic is to describe a moment in my day. I have this thing I do every Thursday no matter what…and that’s to pay a visit to Chipotle. I have been honoring this tradition of mine for the last month and I intend on keeping up with it as long as I can still fit into my jeans. This wee deal is serious folks. I do not eat out all at during the week. I pack a brown bag lunch for work and I watch my co workers scarf down Five Guys, Chinese food, etc. I sit there and eat my turkey sandwiches with mustard without complaints because I know Thursday will be here soon enough. It’s safe to say, I’m Chanel and I’m addicted to Chipotle.

Day 8 | Today’s topic is on giving a piece of advice to others. Immediately I thought about commitment  promising, goals, strength, love, devotion, respect and honesty. Then I had to think about how to wrap all that up in a simple form.  To me, it all relates to not giving up on something or someone in your life. Whether it’s education, career, marriage, family, friendship, or parenting… do not give up on something you really care about.

I feel like our society here in America has become very relaxed on things we shouldn’t really make so disposable. 1. Oh your kid won’t listen to you? Diagnose him with ADHD and let someone else handle it. Correct answer? Don’t give up on him, work with him, value him, teach him.  2. Oh you and your husband aren’t getting along easily? Divorce him.  Correct answer? Work your ass off and take your vows seriously. 3. Oh you keep hitting obstacles and you aren’t advancing in your education or career as you’d like? Just quit and do something else? Correct answer? Work harder than you were… it’ll pay off.

I know each of these issues has boundaries and limitations. I know we don’t live in a perfect society. However, I see people taking lives, relationships, and health way too lightly. We don’t cherish and work as hard on things as our parents, grandparents, and ancestors once did. We give up too easily. We are babied, we expect things to work out because our diploma says it should, or our trust fund says so. In short, my advice to anyone would be to work as hard as you can to attain whatever it is that you want. No matter the obstacles (gender, race, sexuality, disability, etc) do not give up on your life.

Have a Great Wednesday!!!

Today I’m going to briefly discuss fear.  Everyone experiences it in some fashion. Some of us just have egos too big to admit them. The list…

Losing a close loved one
Losing my health
Bugs
The dark

I will say that outside of losing my grandma as a little girl… I haven’t had to deal with losing a very close relative or friend yet.  This terrifies me because I don’t think I would be able to deal well when it actually happens. I know it’s pretty inevitable because everyone dies…(I”m still waiting on that youth pill). I’m sure even the knowledge and expectancy of death doesn’t make it any easier. Secondly, my health. I do workout occasionally though out the week and try to watch what I eat, but I’m still afraid that one day I won’t be able to run and jump and be active. I rebuke all walkers and canes.

Bugs…kind of deserve a new paragraph.  I detest everything with more than 4 legs. Seriously, I’ll probably crash a car if a big enough insect got inside near me.  It’s probably because I’m ignorant to the fact that all bugs can’t/won’t hurt me… but in my eyes they are all the enemy. No joke. Lastly, the dark. Yes, I admit I am NOT a fan of being in the dark. The beginning of my marriage was interesting because Dana couldn’t understand why I’d have a panic attack when she accidentally turned the light off while I’m showering. For a while she found it humorous until I nearly socked her in the face while reaching for the light switch in a hurry. I’m not exactly sure why I’m almost 30 and still have an issue with darkness but it’s very real.  Maybe I should sit on someone’s little red sofa and get to the bottom of this. haha.

That’s all for today folks… time for work on this very rainy Tuesday. Feels good to be blogging again.

What are YOU afraid of?